According to religious Judaism, a woman’s place of worship is not the synagogue – it is in her home. For me, my place of worship is in my studio, and recently, my car. If my religion had a motto, it would be, “follow your heart.” My intuition and heart guides me in what I need to create. When I’m making big pieces, I’m committing to months and many hours of working on something. These pieces need to fulfill a greater purpose for me, they need to express something deep to my learning and understanding of what is around and within me. The super personal is interpersonal. Whether I am reflecting visually on bright subjects, or painful ones, I guide my pieces to show beauty with a desired positive message.
Since 2011, I’ve been working on muslin, which I compose mixed media paintings on. Muslin is an ideal material for me for many reasons, but honestly, my technique came about from many hours of trial and error. Lucien Freud said that he doesn’t paint what he wants to, but paints what he can. Roy de Forest said that he doesn’t choose what to paint, but rather lets the paint choose it’s subject. I can relate to both of these statements, as I try to work with my strengths, and I give my work the freedom to be what it wants to be.
As I said previously, my synagogue is my studio, and ideas freely flow when I am in my own company. In my studio, I feel safe and judgeless. Nobody is watching what I am doing. I often paint, then write out ideas and stories, and then paint again.
My work is autobiographical, but not by choice. I’m constantly understanding and experiencing this world through myself. As someone who has always written stories and journaled, my paintings are ways for me to tell stories; they are deeply personal, but they are not only mine. Rather, they are stories many of us share on our mirroring journeys.